It’s time to get serious a again. Struggling with obesity has been a defining element of my life. There are so many more pressing considerations in the lives of my readers to be sure. And yet, within the context of the external challenges we share, we all have those personal inner demons we must face. While the world seems to burn around us we must take care of ourselves. Bear with me.
I once weighed 499 pounds. Somehow, in 2011, I found it in me to reject that version of myself and managed to lose 288 pounds. By 2014 I got within 12 pounds of my ultimate goal of being under 200 pounds. For whatever reason I lost track of the internal motivators that drove me. I accepted the external rewards of feeling good, looking better and being able to buy clothes off the rack at any store. I had arrived or nearly arrived and became complacent. This morning I jumped on the scale and it tipped at 301.6 pounds. How could I have let that happen? How had I missed the warning signs as clothes no longer fit and then the replacement clothes did not fit.
I could feel sorry for myself. I choose instead to honestly examine where I’ve gone wrong. What did I do that worked so well in the past? For starters I counted on my friends. My “accountabilibuddies” as I used to refer to you. I used social media to post my weight weekly. The “I” in me, based on the DISC assessment, perfectly explains why that worked for me. My desire to influence others and the fear of disapproval of others was a strong driver. So I’m going to do that again. Monday morning Facebook weigh-ins are coming back. I will count on you to encourage our admonish me as appropriate. This wasn’t an easy decision to make. So many of you followed me and encouraged me along the way. It is not without some humiliation that I share my backslide.
I plan to reserve Saturday postings on Red Hog Diary for this journey and will welcome your comments. If anyone wants to join me we can do this together. My goal will be to finally attain that 199 pound weigh-in on January 1st. And then we will transform this space to maintenance strategies. Here we go. Who’s with me?